I find bed is the best place for me to be when I feel like this. Bed is like a safe little haven for me and my room is my sanctuary. It is nice and big, and has a lovely old gothic fireplace (unfortunately no longer working after the earthquakes, it was one of 4 that are now out of action). On the mantlepiece I have a big TV, and I alternate between DVD's, TV, reading and sometimes writing down all the things I've got to do the next day so I won't fret in the night. When I used to drink (like 16 days ago) I would probably have the logburner going out here in the lounge, and after the news and Campbell Live I would play some music or chat on the phone, maybe watch a movie, all the while slugging back a few drinks, cooking, doing laundry, generally enjoying myself while multi tasking the domestic stuff. Now I don't quite know what to do with myself. I am exhausted mentally and physically, I've got a back ache, and I am just waiting till it's late enough to go to bed. They discharged my brother from the hospital today, less than 4 days after major liver surgery and he is still throwing up and not really eating yet. It makes me real mad how quick they get rid of them these days. I just hope he stays on the couch. Hard man to keep down.
Well as you can see I am all doom and flipping gloom, but I do want to post every day if I can, so sometimes they will be more interesting than others. I simply can't think of one interesting thing to say today.
Yes I can! I am really looking forward to the new website, and I take my hat off to Mrs D for being so brilliant, and for getting it together for all of us. Let's not let her down.
Tomorrow is sure to be a better day, and I must remember just how very much I have to be grateful for....not least to have this way of sharing my thoughts, and all of yours, and feeling less alone in the down times. Good....now I can scarper off to bed. Nite everyone xo