Friday 26 August 2016

SPRING HAS NOT QUITE SPRUNG

I've been wondering where I used to get all the time to drink. Generally once I started drinking that was about it for everything else.  I might cook or make a couple of phone calls, but mainly it was just drinking and music and talking, oh and sometimes playing the fool! I seemed to manage an awful lot of responsibilities for all of those many years I was quite happily boozing my way through life, I honestly don't know how I did it.  I am even a little bit in awe of myself. There is so much to do and arrange and focus on and remember every single day, what was I thinking by knocking back  hefty amounts of alcohol pretty much every night? I am So glad I do not do this any more. Every day I wake up with a clear head and feeling at peace with myself.   No regret, no uneasy feelings, no guilt, no queasy stomach or headache, no feelings of  "how am I going to get through today". Instead I am happy, hungry, full of energy, rearing to go, and ready to accomplish all I'm able to in that one day. I love the sense that I am not wasting any of my life any more. There is so much yet to do and to learn and to see and to feel. I am excited about all that is ahead for me. The unknown aspect of it intrigues me.  To imagine the grandchildren that are not yet born.  To imagine the people whom I will love and laugh with that I have not yet met. Life is full of change, particularly for those of us who are open to it, and I feel today that of all the seasons, Spring is the one that brings the most positive change, to us as well as to nature. I look forward to new growth in my garden, and in my heart and my soul as well.
I have a lovely fire going and I'm warm and content and cosy, but I will be happy to farewell our winter for another year, and next Winter I will be embracing it in my new home, and so much closer to nature. Yeah!  Bring it on...

7 comments:

  1. Could not agree more Prudence! I used to drink ridiculous amounts of Sailor Jerry day after day (ironically, Soco used to be my main drink of choice), and then go to work the next day wondering how I was going to make it. It feels great not to have to worry about that anymore, along with the hangovers!

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  2. Yes Robert and doesn't it feel great to know how much more you are capable of, when you already thought you were doing alot before you adjusted your habits?

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    1. It is like night and day Prudence. Alcohol really makes you forget how productive you can be and all of the things you can accomplish.

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  3. Nice post Prudence! Your energy for life is infectious!

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  4. Love this post, especially the part about not wasting time (on drinking) anymore. I can feel that happiness and don't feel like I have "given up" anything, but gained so much. And I'm only on day 14.

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    1. That's fabulous Indigo Blue and by now you'll be nearly at 30 days and those gains will just keep on delivering. Well done.

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    2. That's fabulous Indigo Blue and by now you'll be nearly at 30 days and those gains will just keep on delivering. Well done.

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